Open Book

I am blown away at how personal God is. He is a huge, powerful, Holy God- but He is so incredibly personal. I experienced this the other day. As a matter of fact, as soon as I finished writing my last blog. I had been praying for a few days that God would give me a specific answer about something. I figured He would eventually show me what to do and I might get it right, or if I got it wrong He would still work out His plan down the road. This time though, I prayed with expectancy. I prayed expecting God to give me a clear answer and well, He did. He not only gave me an answer, but the answer He gave me couldn't have been more precise, more clear, more personal. He loves us enough to be so personal. I was amazed and overwhelmed with how cool our God is and so grateful that He has my life in His hands. This experience has increased my faith and encouraged me to pray more, but to pray with expectancy that He will answer my prayers!!

I want to be real here. I am not special. I am not super woman. I am not perfect. In fact, I am weak but He is strong. I am prideful but continuously humbled. I am selfish and pray for selflessness daily. I am not patient, but learning this one slowly. I am a work in progress, and it's a beautiful thing. I have been freed and made whole because of God's GRACE. (Grace: the divine gift of forgiveness and salvation from God that we don't deserve or even ask for but is freely given to us through our faith in Him) I am freed from the weight of trying to be perfect- because I will never be! And I don't have to try to be. I love God. I accept that I am human, I bask in the grace God has given me and I walk confidently with Him.

I am open for change- I don't want to stay the same. I want to constantly be molded and shaped into the woman that I was truly created to be. I feel I delay this process a lot. I am a fixer, a do-er, a controller. These aren't always bad things, but sometimes they overrule with what is truly best for my life. I want to be so confident in Christ that each day I have an open blank notebook waiting for Him to write down my story for the day. Here is the pen. Take it. I will write the wrong story, I've already written too many pages in my life. I know He will write a creative story, one that I couldn't have ever written. Life like this is an adventure!

Just to keep you updated with the job searching, I have a job lined up at a great Dental Office next week! I will be filling in for a Hygienist all week. I also have an interview on Wednesday at Sacred Heart Academy to be a Substitute Teacher. I hope to sub until I find a full time job.

P.S.- I haven't gotten to know my neighbors yet, this one is going to take some time.

Namaste